Never giv up!!!!!

Today I have reading about the live concert and how some people are wondering if it is a futile gesture towards helping Mama Earth..that it might not accomplish any thing...The thing about gesture metaphorical, political or literal is that they are things remembered later long in to the future by those who view it and at many times very effective on the ones that at the time were least able to do something about the problem being expounded by the gesture.

When I was young I remember a EArth DAy celebreation on the network TV channel I think it was ABC...It had all the newest stars Meryl streep and Beth Midler doing skits trying to reach middle america and give them the newest science about pollution and the destruction of the environment...So youngins if an oldster tells you they did not know about global warming and et al..when they voted for the trilogy of idiocy, REagan,Bush and Bush they are lying it was out there in prime time Family hour with with pretty Stars playing out skits that explained and made environmental science so family friendly even an evangelical could understand it..

I became an environmentalist because of it..Also the people who argue for using the Age old slash and burn technology of the past to develop the third world>Use such illogic in their arguments you wonder if they learned their debating skills at Liberty U.

At these venues you do learn alot of info about the small things you can do at home..During WW2 alot of homebound americans did little things that helped change the course of WW2..IN the battle to end the destruction of GAia it will also take alot of small things and inconveniencies to win..But it is not impossible and Live Earth is the way to get across to people that in everyday life you can make a difference ,for if not, then we either live in denial or swallow a bullet..

Oh the Shame of iT!!!!!!!!

Well today I was busy matting a large quantity of prints and packaging them for sale ... so when I finished with the computer and the printer I went downstairs to assemble them while listening to the Television..It was a sad night on the dish...I have a weakness I like true crime shows it comes from my childhood my father was addicted to True Detective Story magazines and I got hooked at an early age.. It got to the point were the liquor store guy would see me coming to buy soda pop and he would have the new mags laid out ...of course my father padded my allowance in case I found a mag he did not pick up it was a win win situation..

For years now I troll the channels looking for shows that I never seen before there aint that many out there....But I am an optimist when it comes to tv I grew up with 7 channels as a child so tv.. now days is bountiful and thank Goddess documentaries are popular nowdays..Unfortunately the court tv was all reality shows today and not any cases when I was watching..

So I put it on Nancy Grace and yes she does care about the victims but I know why she is not a prosecutor anymore She has no objectivity...Innocent before the law until proven guilty is a concept that she failed to learn in law school watching her makes you glad that real witch hunting is a dead sport nowdays unfortunatley Nancy's show proves that metaphorical use of the witch hunt in real life is alive and well...

I learned watching court tv is that the old Russian proverb Never marry a Deacon or a priests son is correct...If I had a nickel for good church going women who gets rubbed out by her husband I would have a Mutual fund acct by now.... If I had a nickel for how many good church going people who go on to massacre small town loads of relatives and friends before a savvy detective looked beyond the facade of respectability I would have a sizeable IRA going...

I learned if you are a Goth, vamp, pagan or have couple of Dion Fortune books in your library and the police show up on your doorstep you might as well give away your belongings because your ass is heading to death row with no get out of jail card even if you find Yahweh in the ninth hour..these are the lessons one learns from true crime literature in it all the victims go to sunday school and If a pagan does the crime its the religion of polytheism that is at fault and if a Monotheist does it might be Satan..Unless you are muslim all bets are off on them..

Paris Hilton is the fourth Sign of the Apocalypse at least that is how conservative pundits are acting or may be she is the Anti-christette...Liberal pundits are all clicking their tongue like a bunch of old Marxist Grandmothers and pretending to be shocked and horrified...A female Celeb goes to jail for a few days For sassing a judge and it is the decline of the western civilization. While male celebs have declared open season on their wives and people shrug their shoulders, Oh well. Dui checks Spousal murder... Paris is the villian not OJ, Barretta or Spector.. She is the reason we are decadent and deserve end times...Yeah Like all this moral indignation about Paris As IF any of the people screaming bloody murder at this event would not if they were in Paris's shoes call in all debts and find A way out of jail..Yeah Little Princess Hasselback like your ass wouldn't be at the phone calling abc and Barbara the minute you hit the station..America Grow up A woman in Northern California was Gang RAped with Three witnesses willing no demanding to give statements and it is not going to be even investigated...Paris is not the Problem it is a country in which Crime against women are viewed as inconsequential and Female delinquencies recieve outrageous attention worthy of gang rapes or sadistic murders... Attention that most rapes and murder do not receive because the victims are women..

nattering and ranting and blessings

Yesterday a fashion Mag entered my possession the mail person brought it and today I went on a Marie Claire binge as I had not read any of them for 3months..It is a good mag and tries hard to be politically savvy. Unfortuantely amongst the writers is a faint whiff of contempt for feminism while trying at heart to be feminist in helping to better the women's lot in life around the world..This is the conundrum, the last thing women want is to be tarred with the any hint of feminism... It is like the women who want equal protection in the work place but politically distance themselves from the clear-eyed people trying to achieve it ... They want the benefits of feminism but they do not want the ridicule that comes with being a feminist.(abit chicken shit of mine and the next generation). It is as though we fear that good-looking and charming sexist will not want to be with us If we show some back bone and political radicalness..

I cannot chastize without admitting during the 80's I back down from feminism and sucked in my gut and bit my tongue and married a Charming sexist..It got after 5 years, me being kicked out and on my parents doorstep...Of course in therapy for being a recalcitrant woman because that is what we do to troublesome women. They are sent to therapist or 12-steps...What I needed was consciousness raising exactly what poor Britney Spears and dear Lindsey LOhan need...

A little black belt feminism goes along way in 90's rereading Germaine Greer, Simone,BrownMiller and the modern Backlash. These Women Invigorated me and imaginary addictions disappeared and happy fatness occured..for the first time in ten years I went to a restaurant did not eat rabbit food. Yes immersion into Black belt feminism worked miracles that our father or the serenity prayer could never achieve it was salvation through activism and spirituality became clean like a diamond sutra for women: feminism and Yes Goddess Worship, because If you cannot worship OUR Goddess Or see the Divine Feminine then it dose not matter what your liberal ecumenical creds are you are still a conservative women because FEMALE DIVINITY IS SO IMPOSSIBLE YOU CANNOT EVEN SAY THE PRONOUN SHE IN CONNECTION WITH GOD OR FEAR TO SAY IT..you are not superior in calling God He because God is sexless you are too afraid to go among people and say it..SHE 3 letters that you cannot say because of male conditioning given you disgust for femaleness equating it with bestiality, unholiness and thus whenever you hear someone say She you feel a need belittle them by implying they are nitpicking when they performing an act of courage..

In movies 13 Warrrior to Gaudi Afternoon Goddess worshipper are demonized as horrors or ridiculed as hypocrtical leeches by real working lapsed catholic intellectual women...THat are too afraid to tell the church to go fuck off..It is really enraging as well as disheartening and depressing to go to a movie Start to Enjoying it and Discover it is really an exercise in Lynching Goddess spirituality, idealogy and Goddess worshippers...Masquerading as a adventure or a comedy but hiding the message disdain to women and men who actually view the feminine as holy.

But I will look at the bright side If we must be demonized or ridiculed then Goddess resonants in the world...Where She has kept quiet now She speaks..The Seventh age is over And Mother is back, pushing into the back ground a shame faced Son...Goddess is back...Goddess bless.

picture by Mark ATwood = Pele Rising

Merrie part from the Hinterlands............

Child Day stump

Today is Mother's Day and to the unfertile a problematic day..I could look at this day in two ways misanthropically or spiritually.>>I did not realize I had a choice..But in fact I can hate mothers day sorrowfully or cantakerously or view it as a day to celebrate DM the Great Mother the guiding intellegence of the universe...Thinking about it further I can do all three all day...I am not a person that tends to be impressed the title mother...Having been mothered badly as a child and viewing bad parenting as a constant in reality around me... I am not impressed by the title mother or father and do not fall to the ground in awe the few times that they get things right with their children...I do love children and believe that they need to be worshipped... The poor things did not have a choice in the families they are in, Tibetan Book of the DEAd not withstanding....Of course mother's and father's love to complain about the burden of childrearing in the world and then vote in anti-child government administration run by people whose wives most probably allowed a nanny to raise the child...We need a child day holiday without the religious bells and whistles something that honors all the love that children give their parents until they realise it is not the they(child) that the parents love but the fantasy child that they(the parents) are molding into existence...

False nostalgia and false paranoia

Well tomorrow is another holiday the one that most of the powers that be celebrate though how sincerely is only known betwixt them and their hairdresser the paraphrase the commercial..I always am in a befogged state of mind at times when new people come into my life or events occur I think are profound or of great import and I always wonder what is the meaning of this, What is it Goddess is showing me? I find that trying to tease out Her and the universes intent never works out a I find that the answer always unveils itself and rarely remains a mystery... It is usually a lesson plan for me and rarely a relevation of great import to humankind ...

Recently a russian artist came into my sphere of influence I wondered as I was trying to divest myself as much as I could of bad lingering russian bigotry and nationalism and also the religion...It worried me until I realized that what he was is a lesson in trust that I was right in certain beliefs and supposition I made about my European heritage and my mothers religion...It is always a relief to know you are on the right path in spiritual matters and not to linger in false nostalgia...

America is a strange country in matters of religion.... THey do not believe that there is religious discrimination here any more. Except among Conservatives that belief that christianity is being persecuted by secular Humanists...But ask them what a Secular humanist is and they have no definition beyond being in league with the devil...But then My definition on secular humanism is a bit fuzzy also.. Really it is not persecution that these people have an overiding sense of paranoia about. It is the fact that now days many people are not impressed by their religion or so-called piety and are not shy to tell them..."You obsessive compulsive about Jesus, I am not, get out of my face ." Is what a lot of these people are hearing and they do not like the fact that no one wants to kow-tow to them or move to the back of the ecumenical bus when they get on...

People who do face discrimination are usually viewed as deserving it like the way rape victims are made to feel...Somehow because the victim does not belong to a religion that resembles a mainstream religion they are in a cult and thus deserving of bad treatment<>And that is the gist of all religious discrimnation make life so hard that they will convert to the dominant religion if not that at least something related to it......

Merry Part from the Hinterlands

instability

I hear a lot about female instability these days from neo-con friends and family... Rarely do I start the discourse as I believe fighting verbally with delusional people is rude and counter productive for their mental health. But I will protect myself and my beliefs I just know a lost cause when I see it...Daily I am inundated with cute little e-mail about Hillary and her candidacy..About her Female driven stupidity, illogic and emotional instability... there is a whole cottage industry based on attacking her and when all the rhetoric is stripped it is only really the fact that she does not have a cock is what bothers these people...Also that she is uppity to believe she is as competent as a male..

It made me wonder about Female instability, emotional and otherwise...When I am bored I watch crime shows usually documentary or real crime retellings of cases...It is a good way to gauge the moral fabric of a society and learn about regional social life(who are in power among the religious and political groups and who are the disenfranchised and thus easy targets to kill or scapegoat for a crime). I have noticed in the South that the homicide dectectives have a tendency when child murder or sex crime occurs. That if the spouse or parent have church affiliation, they head to the local High School and ask the students who they think did the crime...Usually the prep turns out to be an ascerbic young goth or anarchist...They are convicted on the evidence of their religious beliefs, political beliefs or dabbling in the occult...I am not saying that the occasional ascerbic young goth or anarchist does not commit a heinous crime but when push come to shove they always find one to fit the prep profile until it becomes so obvious that the good family member did it.

I was watching a shows on Oxygen and WE and heard some facts on how unstable a certain sex is 90% of violent criminals are MEN, 70% of murdered women are killed by the MEN they intimated with, Pregnant women greatest threat to her life is not medical but to be murdered by the MAN they are intimated with. 75% OF Male MURDER VICTIMS ARE KILLED BY MEN...AND YET IT IS FEMALE INSTABILITY that worries conservative men and women...Go Figure... MEN go ballistic everyday in heinous ways that led to the death of other men, women, and children and we are worried about female instablity because Britney shaved her head and Hillary looks like she might be a ballbreaker.... Sorry with the way crime stats are may-be we need a little ballbreaker including in international diplomacy....May-be men need to wake up and release the idea that they are not the little princes society and their mothers have hoisted on them..Having a cock does not make you better in fact is makes you more violent and emotionally unstable and may be someone with female Hormones will do a better and more realistic job running the country... Women are anything but realists especially after the age of 24..

Well maybe I should just stop reading my families e-mails, If I could I would just block them until Hillary is elected or gives it a noble try. But with the delusional you just do not now what will hurt their senstive feelings... obviously I am a feminist and a Goddess Worshipper sounds to them like an invitation to send all your crazy political and religious info...it is as if conservatives only hear that crazy voice in their head when you are talking to them... The one that helps them formulate their political and religious beliefs, and so ignore any real life stats on crime and behavior and anything else concrete real and logical does not exist.

neo-cons, fundies and family

I make it a habit not to talk to neo-con family members about politics or religion...Because I do it as a courtesy and civilized behaviour. I simply do out of respect that they are blood...When Politics come up and they always do for a neo-con because like fundies they always believe that some story or e-mail that they believe is cute but really is an exercise in hate-spewing garbage is going to bring you back to the fold, I really try to grit my teeth and bear it... But since I have a blog I do believe that I can now describe and vent about how discourteous and uncivilized it is to send members of different political idealogues and religions beliefs, your political and religious tracts.

Today I recieved from three relations, three nasty anti-female and hate-driven e-mails about Hillary and her candidacy.... At first I was hurt because All these people know I am a feminist and that I am fond of Hillary...But then I decided that I will vote for Hillary...Why because when they the Clintons were in Office the first time they did a great job and second because I view sexism as great a crime as Anti-semitism and racism, not as a cute cultural anachronism.....So instead changing my mind with hate-spewed garbage that they view as cute parables of logic and common sense it made me realize that John Lennon was right that women are the nigger of the world... In case black people are offended, I am mixed race and using racism as an excuse for sexism is not going to work with me.... If white women want to co-opt civil rights for equal rights it is all right by me. I am not impressed by people of color spewing sexist hate-garbage at white women under to mantle we were victims of racism you are just neurotic white cows..... When they call you a Ho and Bitch in a Rap video they mean it about all women.. It aint cute street-talking eubonics for the urban set.

I really believe that only black belt feminism will save the world... The environment is reaching critical mass, as is the population. Men are confused and scared, they are re-pressing their fear and it is coming out in a hatred of women as though this is to them a show of strength... Unless women draw a line in the sand and say no more to pandering male ego, male religions and male financial structure(global economy) we are going to lose the future for future generations..... This is not a time for Race, REligion and Politics to Divide women, the children are counting on us.... and believe me races, religions and political institutions have no wish for us to be united... Forget about $5000 handbags and start thinking about what your children are to inherited because believe me the majority of men around you are not ....They are using your money to fund their world destructive dive into societal denial of the life and death struggle we are in..

IN the end it will likely be Our Mother saving us.

refections of hippies and Goddess and Goodnesss

A few days ago a adopted some plants to place in my front garden one rose bush and a wisteria bush from Home Depot... I use the word adopt because I think I am becoming one of the nutty Hippies that used to live in my neightborhood in L.A. during the sixties before the Manson Family arrived and my mother became a verbal champion of Hippies,,,,, Strange for her since she was a Hawk and a staunch republican but she perferred hippies over bikers any time of the day and made certain everyone knew that... I had a friend in school who was named Meadow and also one who proudly announced to friends her mother was a Witch and Psychic I thought that was the coolest..... Halloweeen was a holiday made for children and adults knew this and behaved for one night of the year....

Then I grew up and married, got divorced and went into recovery and saw a shadow cover the land... It started with the demonization of atheists and agnostics in recovery literature and then I moved to the Bible Belt and in a moment of satori enlightment I saw recovery for what it was the last net of christianity trowling for converts among the ill instead of medical help for the sick..... I saw that I had a choice be part of the problem or be free..... So I left recovery and entered life, a political, opinionated and emotional life things all feared and hated among the serene and serenity seekers.....I learned that my opinion counts and acceptance is not an option if it means status quo and complacency..... It is also a rich spiritual and mystical life.... I am ill but also I am alive and I will never allow serene complacency rule my life and turn it into a half-life...

To live life one must be constantly learning because reality is not constant..........to love life one must be willing to feel even if it is fear, anger or lust..... one must be willing to feel love and compassion..... the lesser emotions and the finer emotions are what make people> People without them we live in a state of shame and lack of understanding. To be able to empathize with someone you must be able to feel or have been able to feel what they are feeling.... Unability to empathize means one can not really form true compassion.... What one will feel for the other is pity and not true compassion....To be angry is to be alive, to be wrathful is to allow anger to grow from benficiality to an emotion hurtful and destructive....God does not feel wrath because She is too wise to allow Her anger to grow to such lengths... It is humankind that has placed on the Divinity a face of man and placed on Her what is weakness and rarely a true strength...... We want God to be Like us forgetting that God Is Pure SAnctity, sacredness, Holiness and Love.... All that is good Is God/DEss... Humankind has only scratched the surface of goodness but she is the embodiment of it...... society subconsciously knows this because GOODNESS AND GODDESS SO closely spelled alike...GOD IS GOOD but GODDESS IS TRUELY GOODNESS.